Finito.

Dearest Bloggy,

This is it.

It’s time to stop looking back and move on.

I hate the new you.

I felt in love with the old Wale. Who has since been gone that past couple of months.

I might look back again, I dont know. No one can predict the future.

But for now, I’ve just had enough.

Love,
Liza

Coz I’m on 2 days’ MC…

Dearest Bloggy,

We’ll keep aside the unhappy episodes of my life for this post.

We all still gotta move on with life no matter what, aint it…

Let’s do life updates now. And beautify it with some lil pics…

As some may already know, I am now doing nursing administration in National University Hospital, for about more than a month now. Am so glad I left SP, the welfare of the staff being treated there is total nightmare, I tell you.

Am pretty satisfied where I am now. Lotsa bonuses (it’s a hospital what do you expect…), very flexible working hours, weekends-free, many many benefits, great friendship, good guidance, and definitely a bigger paycheck. =)

This is long overdue. The first cousin’s wedding on the maternal side on the 29th June 2008. They dated for more than a decade, my goodness. Since in secondary school… So freaking long…

Darling Gramps was also decked in the same shade as the bride and groom… Beaming aint she.. Well, of coz, it’s the wedding of her first grandchild.

Ok, here’s some pictures for your voyeurism. Hahaha!

Soon the time will come for those irritating aunts to bug me when will be my turn. You all know how it is….. Pfffft.

Anyway, it’s the July month aint it… Well, Abah’s birthday on the 11th and Mama’s on the 22nd. (Ehem, and mine this coming 30th..) Well, i treated the whole family to Secret Recipe and Swensens respectively for the darling parents birthday. Which has already burn my pocket of more than 200 bucks only for the birthday treats.

First up, Abah’s birthday celebration IMM’s Secret Recipe, a day before his real birthday. Gotta rush down to IMM from work. My order would be the favourite Lamb Stew. Which I had to place another order coz the family loves it and I got one more as a side dish for them.

Well, more pics over here.

And just yesterday was the 1-day belated birthday treat at Westmall’s Swensens. This time, I was rushing down from the doctor’s. Why? Coz I am down with fever, and didnt go to work. Filial daughter aint I keeping my promise though I’m not too well.. Hahaha. 2 days of MC till today. That’s why I am this free to do a picture update.

Got my chilli fish pasta, my all-time favourite on the Swensens’ menu. And yes, the desserts.

More pics at the album here.

And the mum didn’t expect a firehouse candle-litted sundae. She was  surprised and she teared! Whahahahaaha.. WIll upload that video soon enough.

For now, will just find something to eat. Thank god my appetite is not affected though I am sick now.

Love,
Liza

So much for my happy ending…

Dearest Bloggy,

We were supposed to be together by last month.

But as always, fate still manage to entangle this life.

I am a mere helpless soul.

Well, yes, I asked for the time-off between us.

Actually, I don’t know why I did that. Perhaps the frustration that he should start treating me like a stranger no more.

Gosh, we kept in our world inside. No one knows what happened. No one understands.

Just at the point this life of mine is almost gone, he breathed air into me.

And then, just when I thought to myself, that this is HIM, the ONE, it just keep getting more complicated.

I tried to move on. This kinda life is suffocating me. Though we have our plans, which one by one just dont seem to fall in place. I’m giving up.

But each time I tried to move on, the mind goes back.

To last year. To my biggest life challenge. To how he brought me back to my feet again. To how a mere friendship just grows so much, amidst the etchnicity and color. To our peaceful happy undisturbed times in Phnom Penh. To the joys, the tears.

I’ve learnt to respect a man. Coz he’s one who deserved it. And I never met this kinda man ever, I never ever felt this way.

But I’m learning, to love is to be able to let go. To love is to be happy when the other is happy.

Things are still so unstable now.

If fate decrees that we are meant to be, we will.

Even if we didn’t make it, you are the only one who is permanently etched in the mind, the heart.

Ku berserah…..

May our prayers be answered. And this fairytale has a happy ending.

Amen.

Love,
Liza

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Dearest Bloggy,

I went for an engagement ceremony last Saturday. It was in fact my very first personal engagement ceremony that I attended, and it was someone I knew way back since I was a kid.

The name’s Sahara Melissa.

Looking at how pretty she was decked in a glamourous kebaya, with all the make-up on, makes me realise how time really flies. It seems just like recently that we were decked in ugly school uniforms, with the worst sense of fashion ever imagined back then. And there I saw her in her utmost elegance, ready to be the wife of someone soon enough.

Frowning or not, she’s still shines like the star of the day no doubt, with many ‘paparazzis‘ everywhere armed with their cameras.

I came along with two other friends from secondary school, whom I havent met in ages. And another who joined us a lil later. I really felt we didnt even age at all, everything still look as when we were still in adoslescent teenagers years.

Albeit the oh-so-hot weather and the dreadful bad hair day(for myself), I still enjoyed the day with the company from the old friends, till I really couldn’t care less about all of those. It’s just purely good times. Especially when the other guests already left, and we were all being who we really are. Camwhoring as if we too were the ones getting engaged. Well, might as well aint it? I dont even know if I were to ever get engaged, I’d choose to used the money to blackmail my potential husband for a better honeymoon. Haha… Then, we continued feasting on many junks from all the gifts. The best being the chocolate fudged brownie cake, simply irresistable.

I see my friends either getting engaged or married. And some already with kids. It makes me wonder whether I will ever be there? Whether it will be wiser to wait? Or just love will just blind it all?

I dreamt of such a fantabulous dream last night. It wakes me up in such a happy mood.

The dream?

I had two twin boys, so cute that I can still remember their faces as I am typing now. Definite hearthrobs when they get older. It was (eeriely) that distinct and clear. In the dream includes Wale, my siblings, my aunt, and my parents. The joy on their faces playing with the two lil ones. I dreaded so much when I wake up from the dream to the voice of the irritating lil sister.

And I really am not kidding at all for that matter. The dream feels so real, yet surreal. And I have no freaking idea what it means at all.

I wish I would relive back to that dream when I closed my eyes tonight…………

Love,
Liza

Uno.

Dearest Bloggy,

Hello.

It’s finally time to close the chapters of my old life. And here I seek to start a new refreshed one.

The paths of life till now have been eventful.

I learnt to grow, I learn to understand the facets of life. I grew stronger.

I learnt about hatred, I learnt about love.

But are all these lessons in life enough for me to lead the perfect life?

Ok, I know it’s utterly impossible for the perfect life.

But together with you, I shall share my laughters, my sorrows.

So that better future will shine for me.

Love,
Liza